I got transferred again. Remember what I said about being transferred to TO? It's fixed. My feelings are mixed. I don't really know whether to accept or not. The fact is when I was asked if I can take the job, I actually said yes! Man, my heart was like, "NO WAY! Over my dead body!"

Last week, when I went over to TO for a while, I felt alienated. It's always like that. I guess everyone goes throught this feeling of alienation when they are exposed to a new environment. When I got back to TDS and sat in that corner where I used to sleep, I felt a lot more relieved. It's as if I'm back to my nest, my comfort zone.

I'm feel so at ease when I'm back at the seat there. The smell, the surroundings, the radio; they are all so comforting. Especially the radio. There's no radio playing in the background at TO. It's deadly quiet. Alright, I suppose you can't really play radio when there are 3 Warrant Officers in the office.

Radio has always been something special to me. It represents freedom and carefree. It's something that connects me to the outside world when I'm the army. I enjoying listening to the music being played and I quickly take it for granted.

They ran a cable from TDS all the way to the toilet and placed a speaker there. Every trip to the toilet today was agonizing as the blaring music reminded me of my carefree days in TDS. If I could listen to music, I guess it wouldn't be so bad.