She decided to leave me alone. She says we could still be good friends. I don't want to downgrade her to become a friend. I can never treat a friend as how I treat my girlfriend because a friend can never occupy as much space as my girlfirend, either in my life or in my heart.

I thought of asking her for a movie but looks like no chance. She will do better without me. Lesser pain and hurt. Less miserable. I didn't want to let her go but I can't bear to see her in pain. I had no choice but to agree to the one week thing. Hopes she regains her smile and laughter, both of which I had not seen nor heard for a long, long time...

That's it, I guess... All alone. It's my fault for making her hurt. I've been hurt before but I've kept mum, that's why she thinks I'm OK with eveything. Think we both hurt each other equally much... And loved each other equally much too... Today's hurt is the most devastating. I feel weak and numb. Can't stand up. Lack of energy.

I know I won't be her 'Dear' in a short time; she will address some other guys that... But she will always be my 'sweetie' forever... I'll be right here waiting... Can't see well as tears are blurring my vision... I shall stop here for now...