The satisfaction of quenching my thirst, feeling of BLD and puzzlement is what this knowledge did to me. I didn't expect to stumble upon it so suddenly; it's all chance. Some call it fate or providence. I prefer it to attribute it to my instinct. Anyway, it's interesting, though, to explore another's pysche. It's terrifying to realise how aggressive one could be and yet at the same time, the very same actions, can be deemed as superfluous.

Of course, the ever present hurt was also part of the revelation package. As I mentioned, how can there be disclosure without hurt? Why am I left un-informed? A decision was made and I seek to find out. I know the answer but I didn't really believe it entirely. A simple fact of 'action speaks louder than words'. Did I not state my wishes? Perhaps they're not specific nor firm enough.

I shall make it a point to log items of relevance each day and attempt to coincide them with the so-called facts I received from the two channels. No one-sided story there. Chances of them matching will be relatively low - that is my hypothesis. I shall observe for a period of time to see if it stands or falls.

As to my previous hypothesis, I've singled out the factor - the lake. What I see, is just tip of the iceberg; there's a lot more below. I presume that beneath the calm and still waters, lies huge amounts of activities.

Knowledge is indeed a double-edged sword. This time, it seems to aid me. I'll never forget how Lü Bu died. Neither would I forget Zhuge Liang's excellent strategies. Sun Zi's strategies proved to be of good use too. Truth, too, is a double-edged sword in this case. It touches and kills.