I'm so tired. Feel so sleepy. I think I can fall asleep instantly. I guess this week has been busier than usual. All that manning stuff to do and the reports to submit.
I went to help out at her best friend's birthday party in the afternoon. I was about to head for Sim Lim Square to shop for my speakers and mouse when I heard her call. I thought that my help was not required, as she said earlier on. Nevertheless, I went over. I think I'll go shopping tomorrow.
It was no easy feat sticking little Mentos onto the wall with Blue Tac. It was really tedious and time-consuming but the end result is amazing. "HAPPY 21st B'DAY". When I sat down and took a good look, I didn't believe I managed to do it out. Perhaps nobody will bother or care about who puts them up but I'll remember such an experience.
Another amazing feat for the day was improvising clear tape as string. We didn't have fishing line to tie the balloons. A sudden streak of genius came across me and I pasted the clear tape together to form a plastic strip. It was this idea that enabled us to hang up many of the balloons. Even I myself was kind of astonished that I could think of this idea.
To my greater amazement is that I did not have any lunch but I did not feel really hungry. Perhaps the leftover night snack helped. It might be just a mixed fruit cookie but it contains at least some 300 - 400 kcal. You don't eat SAF night snack just for fun; you eat it for extra energy. Maybe the decor work was keeping my mind busy too.
My role today was largely support, just follow instructions and complete the work. After the decoration was done, I began to feel bored and restless. I felt neglected too. This always happen but I overlooked this aspect today. She was really engrossed in all the decoration work and entertainment of guests, so much that I was very much alone. Bored, essentially.
It wasn't until 2 hours after I arrived that she remembered that I had not had lunch. To think that we had some prior agreements to eat together. Trash that, for I too, was too busy to remind her. She thought Eric called so I went outside to chat. Fact is I got bored and called Eric instead. She was having so much fun catching up with the old friends that I was way out of her mind. It's fine because friends come first. "You don't need me, you can get by alone," is what she would have said anyway.
As much as I tried to listen in their conversation and observe, I had difficulty in participating. What they talked and discussed were beyond my knowledge and understanding. It was something that they had in common, a shared experience that brings them together. I was just another outsider, alien and unknown.
Oh well. At least I fufiled my objective, that is, to help them decorate the place. I left around 7.30pm, well before the cake-cutting. I was thinking of staying on till the cake-cutting was over but with each passing minute, the build-up boredom was killing me. I wanted to tell her but she was inside taking pictures and having fun. So I decided to leave her a message and left quietly. On hindsight, I realized that this gesture of mine was rude, especially to the hostess. But heck! I wasn't even invited in the first place; I was there to help out. Anyway, I've to take note to inform the host/hostess in future.
I could have waited till she was done inside but how long would it take? 15 min? 45 min? 1½ hour? Or perhaps 2? She was miffed that I did not tell her personally. How could I do so? Do you really expect me to barge in and announce my departure amidst all those fun and laughter? I may be aloof at times but I'm certainly not undiplomatic.
A part of lyrics from Creed's One Last Breathe to describe how I felt prior to leaving the party:
*Hold me now*
*I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking*
*That maybe six feet, ain’t so far down*
I had a revelation when I was decorating the place. A sudden thought came across me and it echoed in my head, "We're all adults now, no longer children or adolescents." It's true. Does children know how to decorate a place, take charge, give instructions and execute actions? Unknowingly, I've grown up too. We can no longer sit around and wait for things to happen. We have to play an active role. As children, there wasn't much we can do so we just sit around and wait for things to happen.
I guess many people do not realise that as time goes by, their potential and capabiltiy increases too. To the extent that they can perform many taks and duties that they once thought impossible. It is ignorance that leads them to believe that they cannot do it, which in actual fact, they can! Once they have seen the light, there is no stopping them.As adults, w cannot adopt a "catch-as-catch-can" attiude. We have to take part actively and make things happen, or at least attempt to do so.
After I left the party, I went over to Eric's place. I got a floppy drive from him for ten bucks and some assorted CD-writing programs. We spent some time in conversation and my boredom was all vapourised. I think I was looking for someone to talk to. I was lucky that he was free. If not, I would have gone home and hid under my blanket. I guess I'm somewhat like my Sim. I used to think that getting him a wife is all I needed to keep his Social bar full. After all, when you can have a wife to talk to all the while, you don't need to waste time calling up friends and to socialize. However, as the game progresses, I realised that I was dreadfully myopic. The husband came home everyday to find the wife tired. Although they had time to interact, it was minimal. Eventually, the husband Social bar went empty and I had no choice but to call up friends. Moral of the story? It's good to have someone by your side and to listen to you but if that someone is to be unavailable, it's also good to have friends to fall back on.
This post was supposed to be last night's post. However, I was too tired to continue and fell asleep on my bed by accident. I only got up at 4.10am when my mom came into my room to shoo me into proper sleeping position. Thus, I continued now...
I went to help out at her best friend's birthday party in the afternoon. I was about to head for Sim Lim Square to shop for my speakers and mouse when I heard her call. I thought that my help was not required, as she said earlier on. Nevertheless, I went over. I think I'll go shopping tomorrow.
It was no easy feat sticking little Mentos onto the wall with Blue Tac. It was really tedious and time-consuming but the end result is amazing. "HAPPY 21st B'DAY". When I sat down and took a good look, I didn't believe I managed to do it out. Perhaps nobody will bother or care about who puts them up but I'll remember such an experience.
Another amazing feat for the day was improvising clear tape as string. We didn't have fishing line to tie the balloons. A sudden streak of genius came across me and I pasted the clear tape together to form a plastic strip. It was this idea that enabled us to hang up many of the balloons. Even I myself was kind of astonished that I could think of this idea.
To my greater amazement is that I did not have any lunch but I did not feel really hungry. Perhaps the leftover night snack helped. It might be just a mixed fruit cookie but it contains at least some 300 - 400 kcal. You don't eat SAF night snack just for fun; you eat it for extra energy. Maybe the decor work was keeping my mind busy too.
My role today was largely support, just follow instructions and complete the work. After the decoration was done, I began to feel bored and restless. I felt neglected too. This always happen but I overlooked this aspect today. She was really engrossed in all the decoration work and entertainment of guests, so much that I was very much alone. Bored, essentially.
It wasn't until 2 hours after I arrived that she remembered that I had not had lunch. To think that we had some prior agreements to eat together. Trash that, for I too, was too busy to remind her. She thought Eric called so I went outside to chat. Fact is I got bored and called Eric instead. She was having so much fun catching up with the old friends that I was way out of her mind. It's fine because friends come first. "You don't need me, you can get by alone," is what she would have said anyway.
As much as I tried to listen in their conversation and observe, I had difficulty in participating. What they talked and discussed were beyond my knowledge and understanding. It was something that they had in common, a shared experience that brings them together. I was just another outsider, alien and unknown.
Oh well. At least I fufiled my objective, that is, to help them decorate the place. I left around 7.30pm, well before the cake-cutting. I was thinking of staying on till the cake-cutting was over but with each passing minute, the build-up boredom was killing me. I wanted to tell her but she was inside taking pictures and having fun. So I decided to leave her a message and left quietly. On hindsight, I realized that this gesture of mine was rude, especially to the hostess. But heck! I wasn't even invited in the first place; I was there to help out. Anyway, I've to take note to inform the host/hostess in future.
I could have waited till she was done inside but how long would it take? 15 min? 45 min? 1½ hour? Or perhaps 2? She was miffed that I did not tell her personally. How could I do so? Do you really expect me to barge in and announce my departure amidst all those fun and laughter? I may be aloof at times but I'm certainly not undiplomatic.
A part of lyrics from Creed's One Last Breathe to describe how I felt prior to leaving the party:
*Hold me now*
*I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking*
*That maybe six feet, ain’t so far down*
I had a revelation when I was decorating the place. A sudden thought came across me and it echoed in my head, "We're all adults now, no longer children or adolescents." It's true. Does children know how to decorate a place, take charge, give instructions and execute actions? Unknowingly, I've grown up too. We can no longer sit around and wait for things to happen. We have to play an active role. As children, there wasn't much we can do so we just sit around and wait for things to happen.
I guess many people do not realise that as time goes by, their potential and capabiltiy increases too. To the extent that they can perform many taks and duties that they once thought impossible. It is ignorance that leads them to believe that they cannot do it, which in actual fact, they can! Once they have seen the light, there is no stopping them.As adults, w cannot adopt a "catch-as-catch-can" attiude. We have to take part actively and make things happen, or at least attempt to do so.
After I left the party, I went over to Eric's place. I got a floppy drive from him for ten bucks and some assorted CD-writing programs. We spent some time in conversation and my boredom was all vapourised. I think I was looking for someone to talk to. I was lucky that he was free. If not, I would have gone home and hid under my blanket. I guess I'm somewhat like my Sim. I used to think that getting him a wife is all I needed to keep his Social bar full. After all, when you can have a wife to talk to all the while, you don't need to waste time calling up friends and to socialize. However, as the game progresses, I realised that I was dreadfully myopic. The husband came home everyday to find the wife tired. Although they had time to interact, it was minimal. Eventually, the husband Social bar went empty and I had no choice but to call up friends. Moral of the story? It's good to have someone by your side and to listen to you but if that someone is to be unavailable, it's also good to have friends to fall back on.
This post was supposed to be last night's post. However, I was too tired to continue and fell asleep on my bed by accident. I only got up at 4.10am when my mom came into my room to shoo me into proper sleeping position. Thus, I continued now...
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